Reclaiming Imogen

rubber boot pound shop philosophy

2008-05-13T18:10:00.003-05:00

as much as my head is filled. i am blank. full sucked of cigarettes and pine wood and disconnections. at the moment, i have no idea what to do with galoshes. or backgammon. or red wine. or rolled eyes. or irritation. these thunderstorm stomachs. or health food stores. even though they all might be some. very. good. place. you're probably the thing that fills the space of the thing that is pretty comfortable.

ennit.

i just made that up. but it's actually kind of logical.

my head is filled

2008-05-13T15:33:00.001-05:00

with chewing gum and black inky markers. stained finger prints. there was something else

but now it's gone.

these are mine

2008-05-13T04:07:00.002-05:00

favorite morning things

snuggling
hearing goodmorning wife
strong coffee
quiet time with the computer
listening to the school kids play on the other side of the garden
waking up full of joy
half-awake kissing in the kitchen waiting for the kettle
walking to the park

what are yours

you would be comatose, after this one

2008-05-10T17:54:00.002-05:00

but i'll always be there to take care of those bits
that you'd left
when there's no room
for me

probably

really average kebobs, are, really, average

2008-05-10T17:26:00.002-05:00

i was going to post something about seeing one of your exes out at the local tonight. how strange and proud i felt to be there. with you. on some stupid ugly lonely-night-out-pub-bench. filled with joy--that didn't have to be created from anywhere. but i won't. because, there's still loads of Styrofoam-sweaty chips to eat. and at-home-wine to drink. and laughter to fill a thousand years. I'm so glad we went out for a pint, he says. and i think. yeah. yes. and we smile kiss joy. greasy-garlic-fingertip-future.

i believed you with my whole heart when we first met

2008-05-10T11:40:00.001-05:00

and, i'm really sorry. but,

you do snore.

cigarettes and you

2008-05-10T02:51:00.003-05:00

in the between,

i make food. pork loins. pickled sorrel. pints. pink strawberry ice cream. pink sweater. on the porch. of these sunshine days.

in the between, i make lists. of grocery stores. and recipes. the steps to potato pancakes. the names of streets to home.

waiting for things i've never had much luck with. like lost luggage and love.

things i currently need

2008-05-07T14:38:00.001-05:00

new underwear
sunglasses

at 9:20 this turned into a much differnet conversation (thank god for you)

2008-05-05T23:17:00.007-05:00

. . . i'll tell you what we're gonna do
hey
you will shelter me
my love
and i

i will shelter

and if you shelter me too

i will shelter you

and listen

when

you will

and i will

shelter

steps to finding my lost damien rice cd

2008-05-05T16:55:00.002-05:00

[that is signed with a personalized doodle done (of me!) in the front cover by the artist himself. as he sat, exhausted after a concert, on the wooden floor of a very small bar in chicago several years ago.]

1. have major meltdown when artist boyfriend who happens to be staying over at your place for several weeks, because you want to show it to him, and you can't find it anywhere.

2. forget about it for a month or more.

3. have random conversations out of nowhere with strangers about not being able to listen to damien rice.

4. make a post about it.

5. have major meltdown trying to find a dvd that you want to take on a trip with you. find that dvd and the lost cd. (in the place that you were looking for it months before).

6. (optional) listen to "the professor". cry.

i don't know if i'm ready

2008-05-04T19:26:00.003-05:00

hovering over the titles

of it all.

all these edges. left. inside.

to listen to damien rice. just yet.

if you're happy and you know it?

2008-05-04T13:33:00.002-05:00

as if it wasn't enough that some person i have been reading for years is super popular. now, his sold-out w00t t-shirt is being worn on The Totally Rad Show?!

when i saw it i was like. wait a tick . . . i know that sheep! bonkers!

jornal alchoilc: 7

2008-05-03T22:18:00.001-05:00

note toe self: things not to do after drinking aslot.

wax

this morning

2008-05-03T11:23:00.001-05:00

seriously, when was the last time you cried because you were

happy?

what i've managed to pack so far

2008-05-01T10:12:00.001-05:00

cigarettes
(sexy) undergarments
encoding guidelines

yesterday

2008-05-01T10:07:00.001-05:00

i bought my first maternity outfit

don't worry

2008-04-30T18:57:00.000-05:00

i've already contacted blogger about this site's questionable content.

guess like normal

2008-04-29T20:53:00.002-05:00

i stayed up looking and hoping someone would want to say goodnight to me.

conversations with my husband (1)

2008-04-29T15:10:00.001-05:00

you've got too many toss pots to keep up with . . .

can we just call this one fucker?

Signora Imogenius!

2008-04-29T11:07:00.004-05:00

How could I not respond to a tag from one of my favorite people in blogverse? (And it's about books, too!)

1. Pick up the nearest book.
The nearest book was sitting next to my foot on the bottom shelf of my computer desk, and I'm sure it reveals absolutely nothing about my seriously nerdy nature.

Wesley, Marilyn C. VIOLENT ADVENTURE: Contemporary Fiction by American Men. Charlottesville: U of Virginia P, 2003.

2. Open to page 123.
The 6th section of the book which falls into Part Three: Interrogation of Community. Page 123 is several pages into "Detecting Power: Ernest Gaine's A Gathering of Old Men and Walter Mosley's Devil in a Blue Dress.

3. Find the fifth sentence.
This lesson takes shape, first, through a series of mentors who teach Easy about the levels and types of violent power and, finally, through an enigmatic woman whose mystery abrogates the conventional categories of his experience.

4. Post the next three sentences.
His process of detection does not result in a unitary moral code; rather, the acts of violence Easy encounters call forth a bewildering variety of ethical responses. Through the adventures and the ambivalence of the black detective, Devil in a Blue Dress and subsequent works in Rawlins series enact a principle Michel Foucault would recognize: that power, like law, is not an order to be retrieved but the contingent result of specific circumstances that black men may understand through violence and adapt to their own needs for respect and freedom.

If, as the saying goes, "Knowledge is power," it makes sense that the race and class in charge has sought to curtail its access.

I remember reading this section of the text the last time I was on a flight to London. And that makes me smile. References to Foucualt doesn't. I do like the point that Wesley makes here as this section wraps up about black detective fiction and the way it repositions the concept of "knowledge" to put black figures and sometimes communities into positions of power. Although, I prefer Chester Himes to Mosley any day of the week. (In fact, now that I think about it, I was also reading a Chester Himes novel on that same flight.)

5. Tag five people.
darling doodling andre
Goddam Right, you should be reading this blog
Colin (the most boring person I've ever not met)
The sweetest person ever: Mermatriarch
and last but not least, the Super Suburban Hen

dating profile (first draft)

2008-04-28T19:55:00.002-05:00

she doesn't care.

imogen is self-deprecating and has major problems with: insecurity, black eye liner, dominance, red wine, co-dependence, potato chips, relationships, words, naked photographs, and personal responsibility. really all she wants is someone who will regularly do the washing up, doesn't mind doing the laundry (this includes actually putting the clothes away), and having sex with her on a fairly regular basis. imogen is a driven woman who used to have really high expectations. she's learned a lot of lessons. and, so, these days. she doesn't.

now

2008-04-28T13:33:00.001-05:00

why are all your heroes born again white men. do you wanna be. my. hero. do you. do you. know. no. hero.

i'm wearing polka dots again. but for different reasons. watching dancing bears stare. bless. off with their heads. I declare.

do you wanna be. my. hero. do you. do. you. know. no. hero.

i'm getting high on counterclockwise thoughts.

now.

i think right now

2008-04-27T15:34:00.001-05:00

i might be a little bit drunk

current damage control status

2008-04-27T12:33:00.000-05:00

serious

i think right now

2008-04-26T18:30:00.000-05:00

i might be a little bit drunk