took a walk in the rain

and thought about all the things I do with my life to make it unbearable
as usual, I didn’t produce any resolutions
came home to 17 messages on the machine
hang ups mixed with his voice reciting random lines from 1984 and Ulysses

makes me wonder just what exactly is going on
received a postcard from him the other day
he’d drawn a bowl of cherries
on fire
labeled it, cherry bomb
it said something like –
I’m in AZ
for some mind-silence
if you were here I’d speak the word amazing

but the postmark and postage came from BC

I’m going back out, even though it’s stopped raining.