until something human comes

what’s going on? he says
and i say nothing
are you all right? he says
and i say, naw, just can’t sleep
we’re silent
and i want to say that i’m alone and so tired i can’t think or see straight
that i’m strung out on caffeine, nicotine, and the muted glowing pictures coming off the tv
i want to say that i know i can be a better person than this
that i’m not afraid of myself
instead i turn out all the lights and listen to his breathing
you’re the one true thing in my life, he says
i don’t think i know what that means
i’m just tired, i say

i’m just really tired.