no more coincidence than this

i haven't been this sick in a long time
and i remember when and where and under what circumstances
everything just like this
as i alternate between thanking any god imaginable for the cool porcelain tiles on the bathroom floor against my hot skin
and the soothing stream of hot water falling down while i curl up this body on the floor of the shower
trying not to think about how much i miss the comfort of my own bed

tonight i wanted to write
but now i just want to sleep