right now i'm wondering

how i'm going to work up the energy
no, maybe i mean motivation
to walk home rather than jump on the bus
it's the walking that i need
the time and space
that strange dead zone that somehow usually
eventually
empties me up to some place good
and i'm not just talking about deliverance to my front door
but to a world less tangible
where words seem to come clearer
and i find better ways to say the things i hadn't yet imagined