some days i think that i'll be punished for all the awful stupid things i've done
but mostly, it's hard to even remember what those things might be
if nothing else
the last year has brought me important lessons about looking at things differently
to cherish and nurture what i have that makes me happy
and to step away and distance myself from things that are destructive or hurtful
i know that i can still be a better person than this
that i have so many things that i can write out
that i can work out
that i can leave behind
i'm lucky to have good friends
and to know love
and to give it without hesitation