usually in the mornings
i've been having these recurring, and strange, dreamy sexual fantasies about this woman i know
strange only because i’ve only rarely held women up to some kind of sexual objectification
rather than acts of consumption
or mutual senses of gratification
but often when i become fascinated by any person
gender regardless
i want to fill out his/her self completely
and that could be all this is
not a crush or something to be developed more lucidly in the mind
[i’ve not usually enjoyed kissing other women]
perhaps even putting it down into words
offers the thoughts as more raw and unflattering
than intention ever meant to be