today. just an email i wasn't even sure i wanted to send. to begin with. when i was trying to be in love with somebody else. who wasn't in love with me. until you just kept arriving like the sunday paper. until suddenly when i opened my eyes in the morning you were there. every day. and then you were here. and somehow it's been awhile since i had to stop and hold my breath and crimp my eyes and fists tight hoping you weren't just some kind of dream i might have to wake up from.

i love you.