the guy riding a unicycle down the street where i live. stopped short and screamed through my mesh and bones:

you need fucking redemption

i knelt. and threw up. twice. onto the floor of the porch.

i am stupid. and wrong. and small. and awful. and always the same mistake i've been for decades too long.

i am vomit on the floorboards of the front porch.

if i'm being honest.