your sick face. that stupid smile. the way the world goes nauseous and miserable when you've gone. only these bare threads. electric blanket wires and the hopefulness of total self-destruction. makes me think that i might wait. might wait until i see her again. not a house with you full in it. but my best friend. and you. with your righteous heart and full on cemetery stare. you jesusfuck. and i miss her. you goddamned sonofagun. this unusual aching all. the whole goddamned world run like fucking roller coasters on rails. e=mc². best day of my life. yeah, right. yeah fucking right.